Monday, November 07, 2005

Is this Love?

What a difference 2 and a half weeks have made on my life. Since my separation last May, a year and a half ago, I have been able to keep myself distant, teaching myself not to fall completely blind for anyone, and yes this could have helped cause my loneliness. I came close to really liking a couple people that were taken away by the needs of the military, now that I think about it, it was the army, damn army. Anyways the ones before were strictly close friends, no real physical anything. But after one weekend I fell and I mean I fell hard. I tried not to show it too much mainly because during our talks she didn't want to feel like that. I knew that I was feeling this emotion way too fast and figured that if I said something I would surely scare her off. She went back home to take care of thing and I thought surely she would forget about me, she had so much stuff on her plate and when she came home, we'd hang out every once in a while and it would end up like the rest of my "relationships" from the past. But we talked and texted each other the whole time she was gone and I fell even further in Love with her, so much that it hurt me that she was so far away, I just wanted to hold her and kiss her, see that little smile and the way she bit her lip after I kissed her. That look is the greatest thing I have ever seen, I can't even explain it. It's sexy, sweet, looks like she is happy, looks like she loves me, looks like she doesn't want to be anywhere or doing anything else than kissing me. And it's great because I don't want to be anywhere else or doing anything else. I love the way we just click, we can sit there and make fun of each other and play around. We both understand each other, how scared we both are of being hurt, the concerns with her son, and how we can get over these. It's really hard for me to remember a time when I have felt like this before. I miss her whenever I am away from her. I love it, and I hope it last for ever, but I will savor it like each day may be the last, though I definitely hope it's not. HB you are oh so very righteous and I Love you!

3 comments:

RC666 said...

Well I meant it more, in I haven't felt like this and may have forgotten how love felt and then the song popped in my head "Is this love, that I'm feelin" So thats what I titled it.

RC666 said...

Well I meant it more, in I haven't felt like this and may have forgotten how love felt and then the song popped in my head "Is this love, that I'm feelin" So thats what I titled it.

Gregg said...

Randy and HB,

May your path together be long, loving, and healthy and your souls draw from the strengths you each bring, and your burdens be lessened by the feelings you share.

Gregg