Yesterday vs. Tomorrow

I was talking with a friend at my other job yesterday and mentioned a girlfriend, she is one of the preppy kind of airheaded girls, but seems pretty cool. She was asking shitloads of questions about her like she has been my best friend for years though we haven't seen each other outside of work ever. She asked about love, do I love her, does she love me. I said yes. She asked how when we have only been together for a month. I have often wondered this myself. How can I, and her too for the matter, go from being cold, hating the world, and not even being able to conceive a concept of love to today being madly in love with someone. I tried to explain that we just click and fell. I mean I really really liked her from the weekend we hung out but the discussions we had on the phone while she was gone definately made me take the pluge, before her I'd rather burn than fall. But we talked about almost everything. We have so many of the same likes and dislikes. We are both open and honest and just plain blunt with each other. We are both physically attracted to each other. So far I have not found an actual thing about her that bothers me, I do wish she had more self esteem but I am sure she thinks the same about me. The feelings definately came fast and strong and knocked the wind out of me, she knocked the wind out of me. She has brought a light to my life that I have never seen, the completeness of my life. Every other woman who has been in my life and the ones that I thought I loved or actually did love has not completed me. The one I believed to be my soul mate never completed me, she had a boyfriend and our relationship was always concealed from the world. My ex wife barley qualifies as being a friend. When HB is around me, I just want to stare at her and so I can have every movement she makes engraved into my brain. All I can do is stare and smile. when she is close I want to hold her and kiss her and never let her go, ever! I know it is a new love and that is the way "new love" is supposed to be, you can't get enough of each other and it will fade. But I don't think it will. I do try to stay at my house every once in a while but not to have space from her but only to try to give her time with her son and to make sure that I don't get on her nerves. I think we both seem to feel like this is our last chance at love, if this doesn't work we are giving up on the concept yet again. This is my greatest fear, she said before that she falls out of love just as fast as she falls into love. Yesterday I was a rock of solid ice giving the entire world the cold shoulder and today my heart has been melted and given in exchange for hers that I hold dear and hope that I don't ever lose.